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Saturday, September 29, 2012

EDC




EDC may stand for anything
From gothic to gallivanting
But to us it will only mean one thing
Something you'll learn by the time you reach the poem's ending.

Unique personalities combined
Something that's rare & hard to find.
Hilarious Jon jon's punch lines.
Paul's punctuality with a record breaking 50 times.

Selling portable dvds, karaoke, and other things is what Ryan will always busy with.
While Roxy continues reading from the EDC inbox.

Art's infinite sleeping
is nothing to compared to Cam's voice booming.


Next is Leah who is the all time queen of surveys.

Collecting missing accruals is what Tin is always busy with.
But now, she's been so busy with PM files collecting

Bern is stressed out on her CE distribution and WADS, AMG and ACCruals Collection/

Next are Carlo and KC simply busy in looking for everything in budget website.

While Kate is doing her ETF/ETN, Closed End reports to meet her deadline.
But now she's a proud mom.


Different experiences,
plus unique personalities of the different faces
All of these make us stand out from the rest,
For the "E" in EDC, WILL ALWAYS AND FOREVER MEAN EXEMPLARY.

Thanks teammates for everything :))

Sunday, September 23, 2012

When she prognosticated my future

Couple of months ago, my officemate Lloyd referred a fortune teller. He told that this fortune teller is somehow accurate on what she’s seeing in her readings.

Two weeks ago, she scheduled me for this kind of appointment. When we had a deal regarding this, I felt something strange. I do not know. But it was a strange feeling.

I was supposed to scheduled on the 14th of September 2012. However she rescheduled me on the 18th of September.

I am on full aware on what will be the readings, but for me my perception on “panghuhula” is 50/50.
50 percent YES and 50 percent NO.

NO, because we cannot contradict on God’s plan for us. YES, because human/s have the ESP or the Extra Sensory Perception. ESP is also sometimes casually referred to as a sixth sense gut instinct or hunches, which are historical, English idioms.

We finally meet, her name is Melody. She’s quite tall and thin with fair complexion and long highlighted hair. She looks around 35 years old, but she told that she is 42 years old. She met me in one of the coffee shop in Greenbelt Makati. She decided to change our location, because she sensed some negative vibes there, and it would affect her readings with this negative energy.

She decided to have our session outside the coffee shop, where few people are sitting there. Our session starts by some simple conversation. Then she pulled out things from her bag which is covered by a red cloth and scratch papers.

She told me to write my whole name and birthday and the person who would like to know her predictions. I wrote my sister’s name and birthday too.  The conversation starts when she told me that I do have a third eye, but you are still afraid. This said gift/curse is in our bloodline. I remember my cousins, my sister, and my great grandmother have a third eye.

Then she told me to write my parents’ name and birthday in the paper. She also told me that I had a brother, which is dead. He died when he was a baby. Then she told me that my father’s past life was a soldier during the World War I, and she said “parang na meet ko na ung father mo, in my past life.” She told me that she travelled time, when she saw herself in the era of World War I, the place is different, and her quest here is to know her other past life.

Your father is very strict. I admit that my father is strict, and I understand it. She also added that his instincts are quite true. In our case, when he said NO, it is NO. And Melody said that my father had a several accidents in his work abroad, but he was able to survive it, because he has a spirits around him, which he is guiding it until now.

I realized my father had an accident here at home. He was fixing our roof, but accidentally he fell from our room. When he had a check up in the hospital, he has no fractures and only his muscles were harmed.



Then she changed her subject which is my mother. She told me that my mother is sick, apparently she is diabetic with some complications such as hypertension.

There are lots of things that she saw, not only my future but also my past. This was not my first time to undergo with this kind of session. For me she is quite accurate on what she saw in me.
 

But in the end my future still depends on me. I am the one who decides what would be my future. Somehow, Melody is just a guide. 

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Saturday, September 15, 2012

Moving on is Scary

This was written more than a year ago. I was in heartache, and do not know what to do. I kept myself busy, so that I could not think about him. This guy, he was so special, which he has a place in my heart. But the thing that happened to us, he left me.

 I did not talked to him for a long time, after what he did to me. Until one day, I found this Paolo Coelho's quote "You have to forgive your past, so it won't destroy  your present."


I moved on. I forgive him, but I think the company that we had will not happen again.
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May 15, 2011 at 12:55pm

Moving on is scary. I think it’s the fact that you’re leaving behind something that made you so comfortable, something you could have always fell back on. Now you don’t have it anymore. Not so much the person, but the feeling that they used to give you. Feelings don’t fade, but they do change. They morph into something new, I guess. At least that’s how I experience it. Now I’m beginning to let go, little by little, each and every day. The days are getting less harder, and the ache in my chest is becoming a little less noticeable. It’s the memories now that are the only things that do bother me. The flashbacks of when things used to be that get me down, at least for a little.

I know one thing that I’ll never forget, though. How you made me feel. The times you made my heart flutter, sink, flip, flop, fly. The smile that used to spread on my face when we talked. I don’t have to be in love with you to enjoy those memories. You’ll always be classified as the one person that made me feel complete and total happiness at a really dark time. The one I shared everything with when I felt my world was falling apart. You were my only friend at times, and I thank you for that.

I hope a little in my heart that everything wasn’t a total lie. But even if it was to you, it wasn’t to me. I don’t know why that comforts me, but it does. My feelings for you were genuine, and I’ll never let you forget that. Now that I’m moving on, and the pain is beginning to fade away, and the feelings that I felt for you are no longer as prominent as they were, I just want you to know that I’ll love you forever. No, not in the manner I always thought I would, but as a friend. A companion. A confidant. That idea used to be so foreign to me, but I’m comfortable with it now.

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Saturday, September 8, 2012

Falling in LOVE

I was full of inspiration and motivation while writing this one. I generalized my ideas toward the topic, so that anybody could relate themselves. This essay is for HIM. I hope he read this. 

Falling in love to a person is something that you cannot explain your feelings towards to him/her. I've been to heartaches. But if you willing to love a person, you are willing to take the consequences (heartaches and etc.). That is my perception on love. 


How to define love: fall but do not stumble, be constant but not to persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain. LOVE IS LIKE A KNIFE, IT CAN STAB THE HEART OR IT CAN CURVE WONDERFUL IMAGES INTO THE SOUL THAT ALWAYS LAST FOR A LIFETIME. Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end.

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. It is lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing. The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves.

For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days and fruitful years, you should give thanks; you know that there were things that helped you grow. Loving someone means giving them the freedom to find his way. Whether it leads towards you far away from you. Love is painful risk to take but the risk must be taken no matter how scary or painful for only then you’ll experience the fullness of humanity and that is love. Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire and tear you apart. 

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